God Knows im Trying.

I feel as if when you do not talk to me after a certain period of time that you have forgotten about me, stopped loving me, or just don’t care. I know it is ridiculous, because you are probably just busy. You have a life, and it’s easy to say I’m not the center of it. But I would like to be a big enough part of it, to feel that I’m not being ignored or avoided. I miss you. I really hope you know that. Because as much as I would try to deny it, its obvious. Everyone notices, and they don’t say anything. Their silence is louder than anything they could possibly say. I wish I didn’t have to hide how I feel, because if you knew I would at least have the assurance that you knew what was constantly on my mind. But its this knowing, that pulled you away in the first place. I’m really scared, because even though I said I didn’t know what love meant anymore, it was the feeling I had knowing that you were around no matter what. In a few days that dragged on for what seemed like months, I don’t feel that comfort anymore. Its actually on the contrary; I feel confused, I feel alone & empty. I truly despise this empty void, because everyone that comes in my life & leaves, make the void even deeper. And you said you wouldn’t leave... you promised. But then again, they all do. Do what you gotta do, to forget about me & you. ‘Cause God only knows im trying.